At the time this happened Ham I had no idea what it was like to have a child, let alone 2. Now 5 years later, I have a 4 1/2 year old (who happens to be named Connor) and a 2 1/2 year old. I truly can't comprehend going through what you have. I know I don't know you, nor you me, but I think about this hardship that you went through and are still going through often and just how quickly things can change in our overall happiness and well being, both physically and emotionally. I cannot believe it has been 5 years and I feel sadder for you now (if that's at all possible) after experiencing my kids since this tragedy. I get those Facebook memories and it makes me smile and pause to remember some memories that dull over time.....this is one of those memories that can never dull, can't imagine getting those reminders of that trip and everything else. Ugh. Stay strong, as you have, and if you are ever in the Boston area, let me know, I'd love to buy you a beer.