No one biggie. Family were, with one exception who was gone too soon, all examples of what i wanted to avoid being; didnt get much schoolin & paid as little attention as possible; my loves (even my Mary, who this day is lugging my heart thru some spot in downtown Hell) were more puzzles than people; the only person i really wanted to be mentored by died shortly after i got to know him. Some memorables:
Aunt June: My dad was 1 of 10 children, born on a subsistence farm in northernmost VT, son of a halfbreed who made some dough letting out his barn to bootleggers in Prohibition and sent away for a mailorder halfbreed bride so he didnt have to marry a cousin (most of my fam are hydrocephallic droolers or geniuses). The firstborn, most Indian, most beautiful, most brilliant of Da's 3 baby sisters has been my angel all my life. In my baby pictures, i always look like Nixon-on-the-pot, except when my Aunt Junie's holding me and i'm all gurglesgigglesgoogles. June had a short, unlucky life - raped by a farmhand when she was 12. bore its stigma til her early 20s. got leukemia, refused treatment & died three years later. There was an anomaly of a room behind the farmhouse kitchen, which she boarded herself up in when she got diagnosed and virtually wouldnt let anyone in those last few yrs, while she wrote poetry and painted and screamed in pain. Except when we would come home wkends from Da's college. June would pull me into her hovel and play and laugh and hold me in her rocking chair for hours&hours&hours. Still feel her arms and her pain, life has been virtually pointless since she died (the fam tore the house down when she did and no one can talk about her to this day).
Mr. Rabin & Mr. Patkin: I ran away from home the first month of my junior year in high school cuz i knocked up the daughter of a mobbed-up construction boss and his sons (one of whom was later killed by cops after a hi-speed chase cuz there was a pound of blow & a dead 19yo girl in his trunk, so they were were serious folk) were lookin for me. I returned to the Boston area for good at the halfway point of my senior year, but wasnt gonna return home. Thought that meant not going back to school, but i ran into this rich car dealer i used to do odd jobs for and he offered to let me live on his property if i went back to school. Mr Patkin negotiated me going back to school without living w my parents, but they wanted me to make up the extra year and i didnt want to do that. My old teacher, Mr Rabin (cool guy from NYC who shot pool & played piano for a living til he was 40 then went to school to get his teach cert) stepped in and convinced them that a "rigorous" course of independent study lasting through summer school (which, luckily, it was his turn to supervise that yr) would catch me up creditwise, allowing me to technically graduate with my class. My last two papers (i had volunteered w the Panther breakfast program in several cities as a runaway from which i assumed a hubristic load of black cred) were on Fred Hampton & the origin and use of the word "mother####er", so Mr Rabin was pretty hip with me as long as he sensed i was personally serious. He even sponsored me as a teacher's aide for the school's brand new expanded Special Ed dept for the next year, which kept me off the fastfood track and made my great adventures to come possible. When i got kicked out of the music biz, Mr Patkin gave me a 6-month lease on a storefront, some seed money & a grant-writing teacher and told me to set up a program to help kids like me so he wouldnt have to. I did - rated 3rd-best outreach program in MA its 1st year of grant review and still exists. Can't thank them two guys enough.
Numbers: I left him for last cuz i want to write about him but i really dont want to write about him. I learned my biggest life lesson from a serial killer. Hobo camps were still a thing when i was a runaway. There were some parts of the country that were still easier for a longhairhippiefreak to cross by railhopping (cowboy bars across most of the west had bounties for the hair of any hippie and the scalpin was almost as severe as in Indian days) than by hitchhiking and there was food & smokes to be had in the camps. Anyways, i kept running into this guy with long hair and longer winter-fatigue coat named Norm at these camps (first time in NPlatte Neb) and he always wanted to set out with me when i left and it was cool cuz he always could find a joint or a roach (which he called 'numbers') in one of the 147 pockets of that giant coat. He was quiet, personable and very savvy in ways of food & shelter, so very useful to a 16yo runaway. Anyway, this one time, we were set up to sleep under an overpass and i got a pretty bad case of the cold-and-skeerds that youngfolk on their own sometimes get. Numbers knew i was in tough so he found a roach, we each got a puff or two out of it and he told me he had learned in stir how to shut all the bad #### out. I had recently spent 10 days in a Louisiana jail, gettin my ribs kicked out for lunch, just for bein a hippie hitchhiker, so i knew the dramatic sound of a celldoor closing. "Listen for the click", Numbers said "Shut the world out the same way it shuts you in". Took me a while, but i learnt it and use it all the time to this day waiting for a dentist appt or as my nightly sleeper or to close out anything gittin in my way. It's really quite wonderful. Saw him for the last time in a truckstop in Council Bluffs Iowa when he'd chatted himself up a ride to Chicago and didnt want me to come, which sucked cuz it was raining like ####. Next time i was in the NPlatte camp, the hobos were surprised to see me because it turns out Norman liked young boys and it was pretty common knowledge that he raped & killed all them boys stoopid enuff to leave camp w him. Got no answer why he didn't rape & kill me, but that's why i hesitate to write about him (i tried in my story thread years ago and couldnt, so this here is about all you'll hear from me on him). nufced