I got a CCW earlier this year, my wife just went to file her paperwork today (completely coincidental, has had the appointment for weeks).
I did it to make buying easier and allow me to have gun in the car occasionally. I've never actually carried in public yet but as I'm getting more and more proficient with my weapon I'm considering it. I'm not really afraid walking around day to day. Where we live is more rural and I honestly think if that kind of thing happened here the perpetrators would face a whole lot more armed resistance than other parts of the country. However, I'm just feeling like I may have more of a responsibility to my family to be prepared in some situations, especially when heading somewhere less rural. Not just for terrorism but for crime as well.
I've been feeling increasingly upset about how we act during these events in our society. In all these events everyone is so absolutely dependent on authority to save them. I am not blaming victims for being victims, it's terrible what happened to them and they did nothing wrong at all. These violent thugs, whatever their motivation, are completely to blame. I'm not blaming people for not fighting back or doing something, it's a shocking situation and people were completely caught off guard. There isn't much you can do in the moment when someone walks in and starts firing automatic weapons at you. It's just horrible and I feel terrible for the victims and their families and friends.
Saying this, I am watching people afterwards, lined up outside the building, hands up, cowering, fearful. Herded around by the authorities like frightened children (I don't mean that as an insult, it's honestly what it looks like to me). I'm sure I would be afraid too, terrified actually. But this weak, helpless mentality bugs me. I remember watching after the Boston bombing as militarized police stomped into hundreds of innocent people's homes, guns raised, as they just stood aside and watched. It was like for those few hours we had no constitution or civil liberties. Those are the times when our civil liberties are most important. I'm not saying that was the time to stand your ground and do something stupid or dangerous. What I'm saying is how easily we gave our rights up and how nobody seemed to feel like it was a big deal. It wasn't even an issue when it was all said and done.
I don't think someone could have or should have stopped this attack. This isn't even about guns or gun control or less gun control. It's about our state of mind and expectations as a people. I just think we've lost something when we have drills to train our teachers and co-workers to hide and cower when facing fatal aggression. It reminds me of the 50's, teaching kids to crawl under their desks when the nuclear bombs start dropping. Fighting back isn't even considered. Hide and wait to be saved by authorities. That just rubs me the wrong way. One day in this country we may have a Beslan school type event, I pray we don't but it's probably more likely than not. When that day comes we're going to realize how much we're playing into the hands of these animals.
I really don't know. Like everyone else I'm probably just a little raw right now. I hate to sound like I'm blaming the victims or saying they're in some way responsible, i REALLY REALLY don't mean to say that and I hope it's not coming across like that. THere is nothing to be done for people who are suprised by barbaric violence like this. I'm just saying for me, for myself and my family, we're going to have a different mind set. I don't wanna be hero and am not looking for a fight. I'm sure I would be unbelievably scared if I was ever caught in a situation like this. That's if I was LUCKY enough to survive the first few minutes when it's hard for anyone to do anything but escape and take cover. But if I ever am I hope I'm looking for an opportunity to take action and help or fight as opposed to finding a spot to lie down and hope I don't get killed while someone comes and saves me.