Stipe never wrote the self-indulgent autobiographical material that lesser artists resorted to.
Bollen: Were you trying to move to New York, or just coming to get a look?
Stipe: It was 1979. I had to experience the city. I went and saw the singer from Suicide, Alan Vega. I loved that band so much. We saw him perform at this little club. There was this beautiful girl who took money at the door, who didn't speak very much English. And there was a guitar player from Texas who was blond and looked like a heroin addict. Everything was so romantic and sexy. I got on the subway and got lost and went up to Harlem. When I got on the subway, I realized that this is where Suicide comes from. To sit on the subway and hear it in 3-D, and not just from a Charles Bronson movie, but to actually sit on the subway and hear the sound, I thought, "That's Suicide. That's where they come from. Now I get it."
The city offered so much to me. It was only years later that
I ended up having the experience that led me to write one of the only autobiographical songs of my entire career as a songwriter in the opening track of Collapse Into Now, called "Discoverer." It's a song of discovery. It's about realizing that the city offers you this unbelievable potential and opportunity-all the things you are looking for in your teens and your twenties. That's what New York offered me. The lyrics are: "Floating across Houston, This is where I am, I see the city rise up tall, The opportunities and possibilities, I have never felt so called, Remember the vodka espresso, Night of discovery."
Bollen: These lyrics are about your first days in New York, floating across Houston Street?
Stipe: It was years later that this moment actually happened. It's the feeling itself that took me 25 years to put into a lyric. It's the same as Lester Bangs and the L.B. dream. It took eight years for that to make it into a song. That surprised me, because
I am not an autobiographical writer. I'll take little elements here and there from things that I've actually experienced-counting eyelashes on a sleeping beauty, for example. That's a moment that actually happened and I wrote it into a song called "At My Most Beautiful." But the song itself isn't about the guy whose eyelashes I was counting. It was just a moment I took.
Bollen: For some reason,
I always thought your songs were autobiographical.
Stipe:
No. I watch people. I'm a voyeur. God knows you've seen me in action. I sit and watch. At its best, the lyrics and the work come from some instinctual insight, and then you're just trying to edit yourself.