Sex with someone you care about >>>>> sex with someone you don't.
the problem here is that you're not cut out for dating. some people just aren't. you're trying to find a wife w/o any of the legwork. glllllll
explain
based on what we "know" of you, you're just not the kinda guy who wants to go out meeting random girls, living the single life, carousing, cheating on gf's, sleeping around, finding yourself and what you like/don't like about women.you have an ideal in your head and think you can 1) spot it in women and 2) find that woman and make her feel the same about you as you do her, instantaneously.some people would call you a "romantic".