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[wikkidpissah]

This thread has been a complete waste of time. Still the same BS answers from average people that don't have a clue what it's like to be born like me. Its as much a waste of time trying to interact with people today as it was over 20 years ago. I'm not doing it anymore. This is my last post.

Good luck. You seem to post here to try to make yourself feel less lonely, but i could see how, when you total it up, doing that makes you even more lonely. I've kidded you and kidded with you and you seem like an OKenough dude who is interested in his own life but is immensely frustrated that he can't seem to keep others interested in his own life. Well, hell, average people are almost all like that. We put ourselves out there, show off our best & hope that sumn sticks to us that we can care about & maybe care back. I've always thought that to be a beautiful chance & committed myself to it, foolish as it sometimes feels to do so.

You're not sick, just sad that you're not exceptional. Few of us are so, if we don't get by being showy, we get by giving. Try that. Give to others at least to the extent that life has been given to you. And that's not nothing, btw - if it were nothing, we all here would have stopped responding to you long ago. I wish you well.

 

[jvdesigns2002]

This thread has been a complete waste of time. Still the same BS answers from average people that don't have a clue what it's like to be born like me. Its as much a waste of time trying to interact with people today as it was over 20 years ago. I'm not doing it anymore. This is my last post.

Get help and good luck. Maybe you need to hit rock bottom to get better.   By the way--the reality is that most of us don't have the perfect pasts and upbringings that you think we do.  The reality is that a large number of people have had plenty of eff'd up things in their pasts--but we understand that moving on requires that we have to have the belief that we love tomorrow more than we hate yesterday. On top of that--  we do everything we can today in order to make a brighter future of tomorrow's.  

I've seen lots of instances in this thread that encourage you to do what you can "today" to make your "tomorrow's" better--but you choose to fight and ignore that good advice.  That's on you.  Godspeed.  

 

[-OZ-]

You just don't get it.

yep, totally my fault.  Nothing is your doing, everything has been done to you.  The world owes you so much because you're special. 

This thread has been a complete waste of time. Still the same BS answers from average people that don't have a clue what it's like to be born like me. Its as much a waste of time trying to interact with people today as it was over 20 years ago. I'm not doing it anymore. This is my last post.

 

 

[-OZ-]

 That's on you.  

how dare you!  Nothing is his fault.  We "average" people just don't get his uniqueness which makes it so he can't function in our ####ed up world.

 

[jamny]

####ed up world.

 

 

[ex-ghost]

This thread has been a complete waste of time. Still the same BS answers from average people that don't have a clue what it's like to be born like me. Its as much a waste of time trying to interact with people today as it was over 20 years ago. I'm not doing it anymore. This is my last post.

So true, so true. 

So, until we see your next alias 

 

[sublimeone]

RNR, the truth is, you can turn your life around. You can be happy and fulfilled but it's going to take time. The only way to accomplish this is through incremental, daily, micro changes.

Take one area of your life and work on it. Take the drinking for example. Drink a bit less or choose to only drink certain days of the week. Build some discipline and build on small accomishments.

Do this for 5 years and I guarantee you will be a different person.

 

[CurlyNight]

There's some good advice in here on how to turn yourself around. Some of us do understand by either having lived a similar life or knowing a loved one who's been there. We also know that unless you take the steps in the right direction, you will remain where you are today, and there is nothing we can do or say. It's all on you to take the info/tips and go forth with it. Sitting back and saying you don't understand isn't going to help you. I've seen people worse off than you that caused me to pause about their prognosis, but they did it. It's work, a full time job, in making changes in your life, esp if you are battling excesses and addictions.

I've seen you checking out the suicide thread even though I've never seen you post in there. Tons of good info in there. I encourage you to keep reading that. You'll see some people who are struggling and others giving valuable tips and info. It's not just for people who are at the end of their rope but struggles such as depression and such. Rather than creating your own thread again or keeping this one going, I think you should post in there for real support as that's the only thread where being insensitive or cruel is not allowed. It's the safe space to say how you feel without someone coming along with sarcasm.

GL to you RNR. Wish you well. I really hope you won't start a new thread if you delete this one, focus on healing using the only support group here, the suicide thread. xx

 

[T J]

This thread has been a complete waste of time. Still the same BS answers from average people that don't have a clue what it's like to be born like me. Its as much a waste of time trying to interact with people today as it was over 20 years ago. I'm not doing it anymore. This is my last post.

I personally hope it is your last post.  No one has a clue what it's like being born anyone but themselves dude so get off your high horse.

 

[T J]

............You're not sick, just sad that you're not exceptional..........

I don't think he's sad that he's not exceptional. I think he thinks that he IS exceptional and thinks pretty much everyone is beneath him. That's certainly how he comes across anyway.

 

[Conanthecontrarian]

So true, so true. 

So, until we see your next alias 

it is always interesting to see how long it takes for somebody to spot his next alias and how long he denies he has been found out. 

 

[Conanthecontrarian]

This thread has been a complete waste of time. Still the same BS answers from average people that don't have a clue what it's like to be born like me. Its as much a waste of time trying to interact with people today as it was over 20 years ago. I'm not doing it anymore. This is my last post.

you are so predictable. Your requests to delete the thread, followed by the "this is my last post" threats, followed by the "no, I'm not leaving the FFA and you bullies can't make me leave" posts. 

Why not prove me wrong? Instead of constantly threatening to nuke the thread/stop posting to get attention  ("This time I really mean it and I'm going to do it !!! " Ad nauseum), actually do it.  I dare you. I see you still lurking in here. So, instead of threatening to do it, actually do it. 

 

[Conanthecontrarian]

Not understanding the animosity and why people think I'm not taking Any advice. Not everyone is capable of just accomplishing any advice they are given.

ive been depressed since I was a kid. Went to several therapists for years when I had Medicaid but the best you can get is 10 minutes a week with an actual shrink. Even less chance of getting any medication you may need.

now I have no insurance. We have a terrible healthcare system that pushes people like me by the wayside. Even if I'm depressed for medical reasons, which I may not be. Some people just never fit in in the world. I was born an artist and more advanced than my peers that I never had friends I could relate too so I've always been lonely. And I was the poor kid

ive made some friends at work and I've gone out with them a couple of times. I've done nice things like buy several round. I'm even planning on starting a band with two guys from work. I gave each of them a guitar as a gift.

i didn't plan the crappy things that have happened lately. Like the single mom. I was developing serious feelings for her but her cooch smelled. What can I do about that? I wasn't intending to hit it and quit it.

ive at least admitted I have a problem with alcohol lately, which is the first step towards getting a hold on it. Never admitted it to myself in the past. I didn't buy any beer tonight. I'm not a #### but when I drink I say a lot of dickish things which I'm not proud of.

my financial situation has improved and I'm doing very well at work. I don't have many options for getting rich in this world. There is nothing I ever wanted to go to school for. The play things I'm good at are art, writing, music and acting. That's how I was born and it's very difficult to make a living at them and have a job that's enjoyable. Most traditional jobs don't suit me. I would have no chance of succeeding at something I hate.

i especially don't understand the backlash about me wanting to play organized sports. Even if I sucked at it it's something positive and good for my health.

I have 4 nephews that are all artists. Three of them are in a metal band and they seem to be relatively successful. They arent packing arenas, so they have to work at jobs they don't love to support themselves. The oldest one has a wife and 3 kids. Based on what I see on Facebook, they play a lot of of festivals, etc. and love every minute of it.

Their brother is an actor. He has appeared in local commercials and plays. For a while he worked at a dinner theater. He hasn't landed the lead in a Broadway play and hasn't been cast in the latest Hollywood blockbuster, so he works at other jobs between acting gigs. 

My point is if these artistic things are your passion, you can pursue them. But, you may have to work other jobs to support yourself until you can rely on the revenue you generate from your passions.

 

[Conanthecontrarian]

https://youtu.be/JSUIQgEVDM4

 

[jamny]

I have 4 nephews that are all artists. Three of them are in a metal band and they seem to be relatively successful. They arent packing arenas, so they have to work at jobs they don't love to support themselves. The oldest one has a wife and 3 kids. Based on what I see on Facebook, they play a lot of of festivals, etc. and love every minute of it.

Their brother is an actor. He has appeared in local commercials and plays. For a while he worked at a dinner theater. He hasn't landed the lead in a Broadway play and hasn't been cast in the latest Hollywood blockbuster, so he works at other jobs between acting gigs. 

My point is if these artistic things are your passion, you can pursue them. But, you may have to work other jobs to support yourself until you can rely on the revenue you generate from your passions.

Good for them!

I'm assuming they're in the millennial age bracket and the problem with too many of them, as with Rok, is that they want instant success and aren't willing to put the many years of hard work into getting there. I have no doubt that with Rok's artistic ability, he could be somewhere now doing something he'd enjoy if he only stopped blaming others for his misfortune and used his superior intellect to set a goal and work towards it. You may not be where you want to be in 5 years from now but you definitely won't be if you don't try.

 

[Skipdog77]

Eh, it was a good run.

 

[Frostillicus]

Rok wait

 

[Osaurus]

I had a margarita in your honor tonight.  Hooray dong pics 

 

[Vanilla Guerrilla]

Anxioulsy awaiting the next alias to try and guess if it's MCGS.  Might take a week to figure it out a month from now.   Then the entertainment of you denyin it.

 

[Binky The Doormat]

The Doors

 

[RokNRole]

I don't really want to leave the FFA but I'm too weak right now.

Im trying to get a grip on drinking and the FFA is like getting kicked in the nuts every day hearing either that people hate me or canned drugstore advice.

 

[RokNRole]

The Doors

This is pretty soothing

 

[RokNRole]

The Doors

I'm listening and it made me cry

 

[Hawks64]

JFC

 

[Dedfin]

Hello??  Are you leaving or not?  I checked this thread out again because it said the end and one of your posts said you are leaving.  What's it gonna be?

 

[Long Ball Larry]

Like the single mom. I was developing serious feelings for her but her cooch smelled. What can I do about that? I wasn't intending to hit it and quit it.

? 

 

[DocHolliday]

Well.   

Bye.  

 

[Aerial Assault]

it is always interesting to see how long it takes for somebody to spot his next alias and how long he denies he has been found out. 

I thought he was Eminence     

 

[RokNRole]

Hello??  Are you leaving or not?  I checked this thread out again because it said the end and one of your posts said you are leaving.  What's it gonna be?

Hello.

What do you care? Does it matter either way? I've been here over a decade how can I leave now? I know it's pathetic but the FFA is my only real world audience. The only place to get varying opinions that I can digest. I'm a complete screw up that usually drinks too much and posts nonsense. I love having an audience but I'm not trying to take advantage of it for me own sake. I enjoy hearing new things and maybe making some people laugh.

Why would you be concerned if I'm really leaving or not?

 

[Dedfin]

Though, that was the worst treatment I've received from a female player in the leagues.  Last season, in a bit of a scuffle, some guy walked up behind while his teammate and I were having some heated words, picked me up (he was bigger than me), lifted me chest high, and body slammed me into the ground.  It was the craziest most quickly escalating confrontation I've been in.  

Did you just let that go?

 

[Dedfin]

Hello.

What do you care? Does it matter either way? I've been here over a decade how can I leave now? I know it's pathetic but the FFA is my only real world audience. The only place to get varying opinions that I can digest. I'm a complete screw up that usually drinks too much and posts nonsense. I love having an audience but I'm not trying to take advantage of it for me own sake. I enjoy hearing new things and maybe making some people laugh.

Why would you be concerned if I'm really leaving or not?

So that's a no.

 

[RokNRole]

So that's a no.

Congratulations. I hope you are proud of yourself.

 

[Dedfin]

Hey Roknrole, maybe you should do standup comedy

 

[Evilgrin 72]

I don't really want to leave the FFA but I'm too weak right now.

Im trying to get a grip on drinking and the FFA is like getting kicked in the nuts every day hearing either that people hate me or canned drugstore advice.

That last sentence pretty well sums it up. The fact that you use the term "canned drugstore advice" to describe the words of people who are taking the time to try to help you is pretty much the crux of why people "hate" you. 

For the record, I don't believe anyone here hates you. You just rub people the wrong way. I think you have pretty strong narcissistic tendencies. Narcissists are rarely well-liked. 

 

[captain_amazing]

Did you just let that go?

Ya. My teammates came running in, but at that point the whole thing escalated so quickly for something so ridiculous that I wasn't prepared to go all in.  I put my hands up and walked off the field (as he ref was telling me that I and the body slammer was done for the game).  Sometimes you just gotta know when to fold i guess - plus I'm 5'6 so I specialize in running, not fighting.

 

[RokNRole]

That last sentence pretty well sums it up. The fact that you use the term "canned drugstore advice" to describe the words of people who are taking the time to try to help you is pretty much the crux of why people "hate" you. 

For the record, I don't believe anyone here hates you. You just rub people the wrong way. I think you have pretty strong narcissistic tendencies. Narcissists are rarely well-liked. 

That wasn't describing anything you said. You are different.

 

[RokNRole]

Hey Roknrole, maybe you should do standup comedy

Why?

 

[RokNRole]

I know I have narcissistic qualities but it's not how it appears. I think about getting rich and giving the money away to people that need it. I have a grand fantasy in my head of becoming successful for a few years and using money to help people.

I do think I'm better than crapppy people , and there are a lot of crappy people ruining the world, so I often feel superior often and a lot of general interaction pisses me off every day. I really do want to help the world.

I like making people laugh and I like when people enjoy my drawings. When I think of making money from it I start to hate it.

 

[RokNRole]

I went to school briefly for video game design. Most of my classmates were older people studying graphic design. In one of our art classes an older woman told me she had a blind teenage son and she was upset that there were no games he could play so it's hard for him to make friends.

Over the next two nights I designed a "video" game based on audible cuues with a force feedback controller that would allow a blind person to to experience a game similiar to Resident Evil. I've never forgotten about that and I've always wanted to develop it. Make it so good even people that can see would enjoy a different experience.

 

[RokNRole]

I explained it to her and she loved it.

 

[RokNRole]

I want to do something like that with my life. That idea never left me.

 

[Dedfin]

Why?

You say you are smart.  You say you need an audience.  You have a list of things you'd like to do but don't realize that most of them need a real college degree to do them.  Standup comedy.

 

[Evilgrin 72]

That wasn't describing anything you said. You are different.

I'm just speaking generally. If you want to be more well-received here, you have to have a little more tact. If you don't care about that (not saying you should or shouldn't) then carry on... 

 

[Evilgrin 72]

I went to school briefly for video game design. Most of my classmates were older people studying graphic design. In one of our art classes an older woman told me she had a blind teenage son and she was upset that there were no games he could play so it's hard for him to make friends.

Over the next two nights I designed a "video" game based on audible cuues with a force feedback controller that would allow a blind person to to experience a game similiar to Resident Evil. I've never forgotten about that and I've always wanted to develop it. Make it so good even people that can see would enjoy a different experience.

See, that's really cool. The key then is to figure out the path from here to there. 

 

[RokNRole]

I'm just speaking generally. If you want to be more well-received here, you have to have a little more tact. If you don't care about that (not saying you should or shouldn't) then carry on... 

I can only be what I am. Not every statement is directed at everyone and if I don't respond to every statement it doesn't mean I didn't listen.

 

[Evilgrin 72]

I know I have narcissistic qualities but it's not how it appears. I think about getting rich and giving the money away to people that need it. I have a grand fantasy in my head of becoming successful for a few years and using money to help people.

I do think I'm better than crapppy people , and there are a lot of crappy people ruining the world, so I often feel superior often and a lot of general interaction pisses me off every day. I really do want to help the world.

I like making people laugh and I like when people enjoy my drawings. When I think of making money from it I start to hate it.

I can't understand why you wouldn't want to make a living doing something you enjoy. Monetizing something doesn't automatically make it corrupt. 

 

[Evilgrin 72]

I can only be what I am. Not every statement is directed at everyone and if I don't respond to every statement it doesn't mean I didn't listen.

That's cool. I'm just explaining why you get "hate" here. You described it as a kick in the nuts, I'm just trying to give you a jock strap and a cup. You can choose whether or not you want to wear them. I can't put them on you. I won't put them on you. Seriously, I'm not putting anything on your junk. I'm just not. 

 

[Skipdog77]

That's cool. I'm just explaining why you get "hate" here. You described it as a kick in the nuts, I'm just trying to give you a jock strap and a cup. You can choose whether or not you want to wear them. I can't put them on you. I won't put them on you. Seriously, I'm not putting anything on your junk. I'm just not. 

Quitter.  Ace Frehley would have done it.

 

[RokNRole]

That's cool. I'm just explaining why you get "hate" here. You described it as a kick in the nuts, I'm just trying to give you a jock strap and a cup. You can choose whether or not you want to wear them. I can't put them on you. I won't put them on you. Seriously, I'm not putting anything on your junk. I'm just not. 

Talk about a real bummer.

I need a new MB.

 

[Evilgrin 72]

Quitter.  Ace Frehley would have done it.

Ace couldn't even shield his own junk.