I switched from defense work to Prosecution after victimizing a victim on the stand. I tore her apart, he got off, and he did it again, allegedly. I could not forgive myself for what I did. Lots of folks tried to convince me it was my job, he had a constitutional right to a defense, the judge was there to keep things proper, the system doesn't work without zealous advocacy, yada, yada, yada. All I knew is I victimized her as surely as if I had physically assaulted her violently in a dark alley, and he got off of the charges, got off on getting off on the charges, and he did it again, allegedly, to another young woman who deserved far better.
30 years and I still cannot forgive myself for what I did.