I suddenly feel like the only person on the internet who has never taken E.
I've never taken it either but when I lived at my former party house I would regularly come home to a house full of folks rolling. Aaron is right - you can't always tell when a person is on E. And if the folks getting married are good friends, they'll have a laugh over this if they ever found out. If they're not good friends, who gives a rat's backside what they think? They'll be out of your life at some point and instead of having some boring wedding story, you have a fun memory. As far as things with the ex, you're still stuck on her in the worst way. You're not going to take it. Ivan is right - the ex owned you big time. Take Groovus' advice and go get laid. A lot. Nail everything you can. I once hooked up a hairy wildebeest. Another time I hooked up with what my friends dubbed a 'mini-Vladimir Guerrero'. There were some hotties mixed in as well. But it really helped get over my ex and it's a lot of fun to laugh at those adventures. It's honestly a lot more amusing to think of the uglies I hooked up with. You missed one helluva an opportunity with the one handed chick. Hell, if you need to get some motivation, make a game with friends. Create a bingo type sex game. Teacher, medical professional, retail employee, bartender, student, lawyer, accountant...make a square for a different profession and first of your buddies to get bingo buys drinks for everyone. Do something to have fun and give yourself a focus.
And most of all, stop being a giant #####. You're having yourself some fun in so many aspects of life - taking e at a wedding, partying in Vegas, and living life best you can. Yet you're too much of a damned coward to fire up an online dating profile and actually face life without your ex? You're in the bay area! If you screw things up with one chick that's not the end of your options. There are hundreds of women in the queue. Probably thousands. Seriously - whatever your issues, who cares? It's temporary. Some chicks won't bite. Some chicks won't care. And if nothing else, it'll give you some fun memories and get this thread
crackin'. Okcupid and plentyoffish.com. Both are free dating sites that all the regulars in the ffa idating thread have promoted with regularity. Hell, meetup.com was pimped to you earlier in this thread. Join that as well. It's not for dating but it's great to find a new activity and get out there.