The dressing room represents surface level change. Flashy, window dressing level stuff, like having a big name player back in your lineup. It makes you feel better.
Trenton cannon represents your current self esteem issues. You feel low. Like when your lineup contains garbage like cannon. You're kind of scraping by in some areas of your life and you feel like you could be doing more if you applied yourself, and you're upset with yourself that you haven't done it yet. And you want to change but you didn't do it in time.
Getting married represents the worst thing ever. Again, change.
Put it together and i think you're hitting your mid life crisis. Starting to question things in your life - big things and little things - and wanting to change them but thinking you don't have time.
Take some time to think about and prioritize the things you want from the rest of your life. Write down your goals - a bucket list but not just short term experiences, whatever you would like to have done. Get out there and do some of the ones you won't physically be able to do in 15 years.