So early in the evening, Marissa finishes up some work she had to do, and she and her girls finally make it outside, where my son and I are goofing around in the front yard playing whiffle ball. After a bit, she comes over and kind of whispers that they are begging her to ask if they can jump on our trampoline. So of course we all head around to my back yard, and the kids are all playing. Marissa stays in pretty close proximity to me most of this time. Eventually it begins to thunder and lightning (

) and it was also starting to get dark, so we all head in.
She texts me a bit later, asking if the rain might interfere with hug plans for the evening. I say hopefully not, let's just see what happens when kids are asleep. At this point, I am thinking ok she HAS to want me to kiss her, but I am still getting mixed signals with her body language, so I'm conflicted on this point. That conflict would soon be settled.
She went a little deeper into conversation than I like to go in texting, but since she initialized it, I followed her lead. Basically she told me that she is trying not to complicate things in her head. She did mention the unfinalized divorce and not being "ready for a relationship" but also having an internal conflict because she really likes me and things feel so natural between us, with which I agreed. I truly believe that this conflict of hers was what was causing her body language to be a bit closed off the past few nights for Hugfest. She mentioned something about kissing (which said to me: yep, she has been thinking about what I said to her the other night...this is good) and how it was part of her conflict, which i had already deduced. I said well, if it's any consolation, I wanted to kiss you again, but you were kind of holding me back, but don't take that as me not wanting to kiss you, because I do. We have a little back and forth, and it's close to 1AM at this point.
M: "well, if you want to come back over here real quick, we can just move on from this discussion. If not, we can wait. Up to you"
NRJ: Give me 2 mins.
I'm thinking are you kidding me!? There is no damn way I'm not going back over there, I don't care if we are in the middle of a hurricane and her entire back yard is on fire. I throw my clothes back on and put my contacts back on in a record time of about 23 seconds, and head over there.
She is standing on her back porch and doesn't even let me get all the way onto the concrete and grabs my head and pulls me in and plants one on me. (aside: if you have seen the kids movie "Inside Out," then you know the part where it shows long term memories being stored, pretty sure this one was a long-termer for me. I wasn't thinking that at the time of course, but as I typed it out just now, it came to me) She pulls back a bit and we stand touching foreheads staring into each other's eyes not saying a word, then I kiss her again. And that pretty much went on for the next 20 minutes.
She had to go in, because her oldest had already gotten up once since going to bed, so she was worried she might wake up again. One more quick kiss and I head back home.
M: Glad we got that out of the way Lol
NRJ: Yes good talk
So if you saw the flashes in the night sky last night, it might have been the storms rolling through, or it might just have been some fireworks down in bayou country.
PS- WHO DAT!!!