@CR69
I get that...I found out years ago my mother suffered from depression. Was hospitalized not ling after I was born. Whether that caused the tension with my father or was part of product of that relationship and divorce I don’t know.
I have lived with anxiety for a while and only after my son’s depression came to light did I really see what I had been living with and trying to cope with (both depression and anxiety...though never suicidal).
Have used different techniques to self medicate over the years...fitness, alcohol...food.
No I do a little therapy but have found better more healthy coping techniques as well(not that fitness was a bad one...but how I did things was not sustainable)