Taking the day off from poker btw, so I'm enjoying posting lots on this topic. Just some more info on my history with weed and poker, feel free to comment on anything....
As I've said alcohol was my drug of choice for most of my adult life. I started smoking weed sometime January-April 2008, I know it was at this time because it was near the end of when I was living with Eddie(FBGs Eddie), his gf Amanda, and my friends from Maryland Anthony and Katie. One of the guys Anthony worked with was a pot dealer and Anthony mentioned he could get some. We started smoking maybe 2-3 nights per week, usually just watching youtube videos outside near our pool and then coming inside and watching TV. I didn't think much of it, and alcohol was still the predominant drug in terms of influence on my life and actions. Anthony always kept the weed, and I never thought of doing it when he wasn't around. Also I never thought about poker while smoking at this point in time.
In either April or May 2008 me, Katie, and Anthony got our own place. We had always wanted to be respectful to Eddie and Amanda, so we never had weed sitting around the house or did it around them. But once we got our own place, everyone in the house liked the smell of weed so it'd be standard for there to be a bong and a bag of weed lying on the living room table, and we'd just smoke inside if we didn't feel like going outside. I still would always wait for Anthony to get home from work before I smoked(and I would grind poker sober during the day), but Anthony had to go to bed around midnight and I was on a super late night schedule. So I would smoke with Anthony and then smoke more later at night by myself. And it was at these times by myself that I felt I had a big change in my ability to be objective and I began to see the world from different perspectives.
Now as I said before, its impossible for me to say for sure whether the changes that occurred in the 6-18 months after I began smoking at night by myself were due to smoking or whether they were due to me maturing as a normal person would in his late 20s. However, imo there was definitely a drastic change in me during this point in my life and it coincides perfectly with my increased marijuana use. A few things that changed in me:
1. After being a strong Christian(went to church all throughout high school including Wednesday night Youth Group, went to a Christian college, prayed multiple times a day, etc.), I stopped believing it to be true. I could write for quite a while on this, but Christopher Hitchens, Sam Harris, and Richard Dawkins books and lectures would do a much better job than me of summarizing my position.
2. I was a college basketball player, but I had totally let myself go after college. I would guess that I weighed around 220lbs and had never even tried to barbell squat. Fast forward 2 years and I weighed 200lbs and could squat near 400lbs. Nowadays I've lost much of that mass(intentionally) and am around 180lbs.
3. I was a midstakes plo8 grinder. I 24 tabled $.5/1-$3/6, it was a huge grind. When smoking at night I started watching the $5/10 and $10/20 heads up matches that would happen. After a few months I even started experimenting with smoking during the daytime and playing. By Black Friday(April 2011), I was sitting by myself every single day at $10/20 deepstaked($5000 buy in) on PokerStars and $25/50 deepstacked($10,000 buy in) on Full Tilt. I personally think I was the best HU plo8 player in the world at this time(some may disagree, but thats why we play the games). When I was playing these high stakes HU games, I was stoned quite often, including this session(my biggest win in one HU session ever):
http://www.leggopoker.com/blogs/icypots/big-day-7979.html
4. I became much more interested in science. I could watch Neil DeGrasse Tyson lectures all day long now. I used to never even think about it.
5. I also started thinking more about what I wanted out of life and how I should go about achieving it. Things like the Joe Rogan podcast have really shaped my thinking in this area. I think that because its much easier to see faults in other people than it is to improve yourself, we all have a natural tendency to do just that. I was horrible about this when I was younger, and I often times cringe thinking back about how I used to act. I feel as if weed has made me more self-aware and has made me care to improve myself instead of criticizing others(not that I'm anywhere close to perfect now, but I've definitely improved).