I had typed a bunch of stuff out to post in this thread over the summer, I put it in a word document with the thought of sharing it, but I wanted it to be organized. My laptop crashed before I got to post it, but writing it helped.
@strykerpks if it helps, a good part of the reason for my depression was losing a job of 12 years. It was a good paying job but corporate politics caught up to me and the right person got the right reason to get rid of me, some of it through my own fault, and most of it not. I digress, but my point is that no job is worth it. I am happier now that I don't have that job and from what I hear from the folks I used to work with, they did me a favor when they peaced me out with a nice package. The job is important in that I am guessing you need it to support your family, but don't make it the end all be all. I have a new opportunity now, several months later, and while less than ideal in some respects, the new gig is not going to be the death of me either.
On a personal level, getting on a script for wellbutrin has also helped, I think. It took some therapy and a doc for me to figure out "wow, I have been battling depression in one form or another for my entire life". It was getting canned that pushed me over the proverbial edge. In the long run they did me a favor. It is always darkest before the dawn, it will get better, just believe that it will.
I also have to pose a serious question in here. Anyone ever deal with someone with Xanax addiction? If so, I'll take any advice I can get. We are afraid this has become an issue for my step-son.
TIA
