I have to say - sometimes this thread does more harm than good to me mentally.
Really discouraging after dying after only 2 miles yesterday. I hit a wall of unmeasured proportions. My first mile pace was faster than normal but still nowhere close to respectable (Just under 10 minutes). The second mile - the heat beating down on me - running up hill for a full mile and I felt my body had no choice but to quit - yet I still found energy after some walking to run 100 meter sprints and hill sprints.
Anyway - with the thread itself, I am always picturing you pros and the times/splits you post during your reports. I've always been an athlete before getting fat and tend to push myself very hard. I think if "prosopis/pigskin/sand/etc/etc/etc" can run an 8:00 minute mile, I can too. It's the competitive side of me that comes out and ends up burning me out. I felt disappointed Tuesday morning after going my furthest distance but only running an 11m/mile. Really disappointed.
I need a paradigm shift in the internal psychology here. Tomorrow is my track run day and I'm already thinking about pushing myself to get every mile in under 10 minutes no matter what. In fact, I'm obsessed thinking about it. While laying in bed the night before I run, all I think about is pushing myself to the limit and the downswing after I don't hit my goal is really debilitating mentally.
Here's the bright side. In March/April I couldn't even run 4 straight minutes without stopping. Now I've proven I can run 40 minutes without stopping but I'm always looking to turn the corner to the next step and when it doesn't happen like I planned it, it's a kick in my ###.
I can get a free Garmin heart rate monitor through my American Express points - I'm thinking of picking one up even though I vowed to wait until I was at at least 20 mpw. Reading along with the posts here, maybe it'll tell me when my first mile IS in fact too fast and keep the pace regulated to what I can do - not what I want to do.
I don't know. It's Friday and I just did my hill sprints and Power 90 but I'm already disappointed that it's my off day from running.
Also - no more booze until I get to 5 miles consistently - the bender from Wednesday night really through me off.
I got this one.I have struggled with these same feelings. Wraith who does not comment here any more was the one that got me. We started about the same time but he was killing it in no time flat and I was just barely improving. It really pist me off. I just didnt get it. The only answer I could come up with was I sucked. Then I would read Grue complaining about running some ridiculous number that I can only dream about. Go back to one of his marathons and read where he is upset about a marathon time that I could not do a 1/2 in. That will really tick you off. Grue explained to me it is all relative and I sort of understand but my lack of improvement still upsets me.
I do have to remind myself that not long ago I could not run a block and I have since done a half and I am a regular runner. I am never gonna be a triman,gruecd,wraith etc...
I am gonna be Prosopis and I am gonna keep doing it. I am lucky to have these guys here to ask questions of. Its like being able to ask Jordan to help with my jump shot. I am never gonna be Jordan but its cool to have him around to ask stuff.
Anyway I struggle with the same thing you are saying. I have to work hard not to come in here and just constantly whine. I know I have done it to much in the past. I just had to face reality and do what I can do.

at me running an 8:00 mm. I could maybe run an 8mm for 1/10th of a mile. If I ever run an 8mm I am pretty sure I will be dead and running in heaven. It was kind of cool to see my name with those other guys even if it did not belong there.