It did get to me for a moment.It did get to you. You've quoted this post three times now because you know it's all true.
I've posted about my mom 3-4 times over the years here. I've moved out when I was 17 1/2. Right after she yanked the telephone off the wall one halloween and dented my dads forehead with it. Decided right then I would not engage with her for five years after ten years of dealing with that #### so I could get myself through college and give her time to get help because I finally realized I could not help her. Worst and best decision I ever made.
Went to school FT, worked FT. Decided I would never drink the way she did, her mom did, her dad did, her brother did, and her sister did. Wanted no part of that life. You refuse to make that choice. You just choose to repeat all the behaviors you never asked for, but were passed down to you by alcoholism. WTF up.
Then I realized that anyone that had the same experiences wouldn’t be so obtuse .