Ego sucks in running.
Knowing that my easy runs were in the mid to low 9's (and could still run comfortably in the 8's) when I was in better shape, I've stubbornly tried to run on the lower end of that with runs in the 9:30-9:40 range. And I've continued to struggle even at that speed. But no way am I going to run even slower than that when I know I should be able to run faster.
Well, I finally told my ego to just chill out and run as slow as it takes to keep it easy. First 3 miles today all around 10:00 and it just felt so much better. It's crazy how even the 20-30 second difference matters so much even at that pace for me. I want to say it's embarrassing but it's not, at all, because it's just where I am now and I've been an idiot the entire last week trying to be in a spot where I'm not.
Anyway, first run I've enjoyed in a while. On top of that, my legs just haven't felt right all week. Lower legs just feeling stiff and aching for runs and feeling tight afterward. Combination of weight gain with time off and decreased stretching along with obvious lack of running. Today, the legs finally felt good and loose from the start and finally have that good feeling when I'm done. Still a long ways to go and nothing that exciting, but it's just a reminder of how strong you have to be mentally, even with simple stuff like easy runs for miles, in order to succeed and improve. Looking at where I am now, I'm a little more impressed with my recent 15K race pace and finish.
Major snowfall predicted for tonight here so you might actually see a real snow run from me this weekend!!