BobbyLayne
Footballguy
I am struggling to get through it myself so I have trouble consoling others, but I can relate to how you are feeling. I have been through hell and back at least 4 times for prolonged periods.I definitely have PTSD from my childhood. And nothing to look forward to. I stated in another thread that I am on the spectrum. Seeing counseling.
God didn't make mistakes until he made me. #cursed #nevergoodenough
I know how you feel. If it makes you feel any better, a whopping TWO FBGs have consoled me today. I’ve been on this board 20 years. If this was any other poster we’d be on page 25 already. It’s all good. I’m not even shocked by it.
Been counted out and hated on my entire life. That’s why I’m like like this. To protect myself Instead of feeling sorry for myself I use it as motivation. It’s me alone VS this cruel world and I’m a monster. That’s how I’ve always survived.
If you need to talk - I’m here for ya. Send me a PM if you don’t want to share here.
Yeah I kind of feel that way. i've struggled with major depression and have acute PTSD, so you'd think I'd want to encourage others. I read you guys posts and thought "yep been there" but honestly didn't know what to say.
Just keep chipping away @Snoopy. For me there have been no magic bullets, but talk therapy, paying attention to my diet, hydration, exercise, mindfulness meditation, music, Rx meds all contribute in a positive way....every little bit helps. It's not so much about finding a cure but just figuring out how to live with it. Effectively manage it. Some days are better than others. But just keep after it, don't give up.
@STEADYMOBBIN 22 brother man I'm sorry you are going through this. Appreciate you sharing. It helps you but it's also going to be helpful for folks who come along later and read it. Just knowing you are not alone can be empowering.
My prayer for you is you figure out a way to get your wife on your side. LIke she can't fix you, and you have to do this for yourself, not for her, the kids or anyone else. But see if you can figure out a way to express to her you're not happy with who you are, you want to change, and you're willing to put in the work to better understand why you are the way you are....BUT all that said, it would be super awesome knowing you were an ally. Tell her you need to know she is willing to be supportive. I don't know if that's a bridge too far at this point, but that's my hope for you. Because life can be a lot easier when you have someone rowing the same direction.
Really appreciate both of you guys for sharing. Keep chopping wood, making changes is not easy, but you can do it.