I've heard several times that exes always seem to know when you're just about over them and that they always find some way to remind you that they once pwned your ####### heart.
Today started like any other day for me. Wake up. ####. Shower. Shave. Then haul ### to work to make sure I get there in time. Hell the work day started off like any other day. Clock in. Meet for huddle. Get our assignments. Get report. Start taking care of sick people.
All was normal and routine per my life these days until I head off to my morning break. The cute unit clerk who I usually have breakfast and flirt with wasn't at her desk so I head down to the cafeteria solo. I'm a bit tired of my usual breakfast (hard boiled eggs, bacon, potatoes, and oatmeal), since I've worked 9 days straight so I decide to make an eggs over easy, ham, and bacon sandwich. Without my breakfast buddy there I bust out my phone to read the newspaper.
I was enjoying my morning. It was almost like any other day, but half way through my sandwich and reading about the Raiders getting blasted by the Broncos, the status bar of my S3 flashes:
Alyssa: I'm so hurt right now....
It scrolls to fast but it catches my eye and I swap from the web browser to the messenger and continue the rest of the message:
Alyssa: "I'm so hurt right now. I made the biggest mistake by leaving you for an #######. I've lost the greatest thing that could happen to me. I miss you and that's ok. It's all my fault. I hope you're doing well."
Soooooooooooooo..... yah. My not so normal morning became just a little more interesting. I have yet to text her back and honestly don't plan to. I probably should block her number from my phone to prevent me from doing something stupid, but.....
After reading that text, I felt a bunch of emotions flash. Satisfaction and anger were the two that wrestled their way into my mind and stayed with me through out the day: satisfied that she got what she deserved and anger that she ####ed everything up for nothing.
Oh well, not sure what's going to come of this. Nothing hopefully. There's a part of me that wants to see where this could go, there's a part of me that's happy with my life right now, and there's an even bigger part of me that knows deep down inside I would never be able to love her the same way ever again after she threw away 7 years for an #######.