Joe T
Footballguy
I have to admit. I'm worried about you too.I'll be in Austin next week for coshole if you want to talk.More
Wife just rode with me to deliver an order to someone locally. We used to do this a lot together. They are good memories. One time we drove from our home in Central Texas to El Paso and back in 36 hours just to meet a customer. He never bought anything from us. The first year we had the business we had a little Christmas tree in the office and it was just her and me and her dog. We would get in the car together and ride up to work with a cup of coffee and try to figure out what to do, me on the phone selling and her in the back doing order processing. One time during that Christmas season I told her, "For the rest of our lives, remember that this is what I think heaven feels like."She had an absolute breakdown in the car. She says she's worried about me and doesn't know what else she could do to help and she misses being with me on those deliveries and this feels like failure. She said she expected it to turn out so differently years ago and wishes that she could have done something, anything to fix it. I had to remind her that business in our market has been bad for months and my responsibility to our business is to make sure it still exists when things turn around. I told her its my responsibility as a husband to make sure our family isn't so dependent on something so volatile, something that was cruising along fine for a couple of years and then turned southward. I told her that all the dreams we have for our lives together and for our children need to no longer take a back seat to the dream I've been pursuing. Truthfully, I AM excited about getting another job. I am excited to be around people again (my only regular coworker is a 20 year old). I am excited to not pay for my own health insurance. I'm excited to start filling in the hole I dug over the years. And when I get an inkling of "let's just stick it out..." I have to remind myself that that is the attitude I had going all the way back to the summer and I'm just about out of runway. And I truly believe that if the company doesn't have to pay me every month then it will have a real chance to rebound and succeed; with me on the payroll it simply doesn't look possible to me.I had her drop me off at the office to finish some stuff because I was about to lose it and that does no one any good.
My GB used to live in El Paso and their was inexpensive weed everywhere. You could also login to FB show you wife some of my cat shirt pics and ask her if this was how my wife figured life would be after 20+ years.Doesn't help but that's all I got.



