I'm going to step out on a limb and get real with our audience
@Joe Bryant sent me a copy of the Case for Christ(long time ago), the book didn't impact me in the same way he did and I've always used that as a guiding light
Maybe the book didn't hit me in the same way it hits others but it opened me up to stop bashing Christians...any of you all ever hear of Saul/Paul? I identify with him
I went thru a lot during the pandemic as did many of you and I was pushed into groups that i never knew I would find comfort in
I went to men's group on the advice of a very good friend I play tennis with, "MOP, you need more love in your life" and I shot him a bird and told him to F off
Several months later I'm in Tuesday Night meetings and eventually i allowed them to witness me although I did it more for them and to make them happy for pouring a lot of time into me
I'm a lost soul that dances to its own beat, you have to accept that going in because I seem to attract the Christians, they love me and you want me in their corner most of the time
Over time though, i found the meetings to be more of victimization than spreading the word. I wanted to hear what people were doing to bring joy to others lives
I already know what I'm good at, raising money for non profits like the Sylvester Cancer Center at UM, oh yeah you bet.
From Cutthroat Capitalist to a Gift Officer in non profit...i know many like to think people who give money to charity are good people but i have news for you...another time perhaps
I don't pray to do good, I try and live it. I have many flaws, just like the rest of you.
I'm vocal, I'm a pretty good speaker and rather than use that for evil or self centered reasons, instead I've tried to apply them to a vertical that helps
I am no angel, far far from it but when the chips are down and you need help you want me right behind you just like my son tells me
I'm passionate and I bleed, I want people to have a purpose and a drive, it helps everyone.
The opening post however IMO is not a reflection of JB and what he wants to project
I had the absolute pleasure over many years of enjoying a friendship with Jeff Tefertiller who may still be writing for FBG, you'll never meet a kinder more understanding man, i didn't deserve to be his friend but he taught me how to move forward and I credit him with my relationship i have now with my son who is 25 and I didn't really get to see him much until he was almost 18
Senior Year of HS he tracked me down and we've been close ever since
Some talk the talk and some walk the walk and I don't care how this sounds, I respect JB and JT and they helped me get out of the deep end of the pool
My posts changed dramatically when my son entered my life, it filed a hole in my heart that is hard to describe.
So please, when you read my vicious posts wanting to get into the teeth of the bible, it's not personal.
I just can't achieve blind faith, I've tried and i don't see it as a future option
But these folks have had an impact and definitely make me rethink how I treat people and what I want the outcomes to be
They've taught me to cloak and dagger myself much better