No. 16,I've been giving you a bunch of #### in this thread because... well... you're kinda pathetic, and you deserve it. But in all honesty, most of us are truly trying to help you. So, in an attempt to help, I will give my testimony.In November of 2002, my girlfriend of 6+ years told me that she wanted to end our relationship. I loved her, she was a good person. I intended on marrying her. I was 30 years old at the time. She was 25. We had been living together for ~4 years. I was floored. But our relationship had been strained for some time. We were struggling. She was in school. I was working my ### off for enough money to pay rent and bills, but that was about it. I could not afford for us to have much of a social life. Weed was very important to me/us. We smoked weed just about every day. But that was life, at least to me.She was very insecure, wanted more excitement, and quite frankly had a lot of growing up to do. So while I was shocked to hear that she wanted to break up, I knew that it was what we needed to do. Initially I was supportive of her decision, thinking that I would give our relationship some space, give her some time to be on her own, mature, and then she would see how great I was.It took about 2 days for her to reconsider, but I told her that we needed to do this. We went our separate ways. A few months later, she asked if we could get together. I told myself that I needed to be strong and not give in to temptation. She wanted to work things out, but I resisted and said that we need to remain apart. At the time, I believed that it was the best thing for her (and me too).So she got the hint and moved on with her life. Of course it was at this time that I started to reconsider. I realized how devastated I was. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't eat. I essentially stalked her on the internet. This was back in 2002, so it was pre-facebook and all that ####, but I stalked her on AOL. Freakin AOL, can you believe that ####!Anyway, we hooked up a couple of times over the next year or two, but eventually we drifted apart. It took me over two years to get over her. One night I was out with some friends, and we saw a girl that we knew from high school. I knew who she was, but we never really "knew" each other. But something magical happened that night. This was the most amazing woman I have ever met in my entire life. In fact, it was 8 years ago to this very day, Leap Day 2004, that we met. We married a shortly thereafter, we have two kids, and we are amazingly happy.My point is that you are in a ####ty place right now. It sucks. But get a grip on life, and move forward. Be selfish for once in your life. Go crazy, have fun, but be smart. You don't need to go out and bang anything with two legs. Figure out what you want. You might screw up (DUI), but learn from it, and move on.As we have said throughout this entire thread, "We have all been there". Listen to what we have to say. So far, you have shown that you think you know everything. You don't. But you will. Unfortunately, you are going to have to learn the hard way... and you will... as we all have had to learn the hard way too.Love,Maude