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This is a natural feeling of irrational guilt. This is not your faultThanks Fred, I thought I did all I could but maybe I should've pushed for another echo after the first one was normal.
This is a natural feeling of irrational guilt. This is not your faultThanks Fred, I thought I did all I could but maybe I should've pushed for another echo after the first one was normal.
I know you are grieving but it wasn't for nothing. You did it because you loved her and you love your family and because you're an awesome person. While she has passed on, she touched your family and friends with her love and strength; you'll have that forever. And then she spread that love and strength across the entire nation to people she never met who simply saw her pictures, became invested in her emotionally and rooted her on and cried when we heard the bad newsWent back and forth to the hospital for 7 weeks while she was in NICU, took a ton of days off work to be at every doctor appointment, went to Early Intervention meeting and fought for her to get services, joined support groups on Facebook for pediatric stroke, ip, children with special needs, and pulmonary hypertension. Did tons of research on stroke, seizures, pulmonary hypertension, babies not gaining weight. And it was all for nothing. I can't believe she's gone. A week ago at this time was her appointment for pre surgical testing and I didn't think anything was wrong with her and now I'm planning her funeral. Life is not fair.
The nurse for the eye care facility just called and left a message asking how the pre surgical testing went and to remember put the drops in her eyes. We had to cancel the christening party we had planned for her in October. She never had a party, I never bought her a gift, I barely took her out to do anything, we went to lego land the Monday before this all happened and cheesecake factory. It was like the only thing we ever did like a normal family. That was her great vacation. I posted pics on Facebook without a care in the world and now she's gone.
I know you are grieving but it wasn't for nothing. You did it because you loved her and you love your family and because you're an awesome person. While she has passed on, she touched your family and friends with her love and strength; you'll have that forever. And then she spread that love and strength across the entire nation to people she never met who simply saw her pictures, became invested in her emotionally and rooted her on and cried when we heard the bad news
Lots of people live their lives for no reason or in an empty fashion. There are criminals and bad people who may live to be a 110, and yet they won't live a life as emotionally enriching and as inspirational as she lived hers.
I know you are grieving but it wasn't for nothing. You did it because you loved her and you love your family and because you're an awesome person. While she has passed on, she touched your family and friends with her love and strength; you'll have that forever. And then she spread that love and strength across the entire nation to people she never met who simply saw her pictures, became invested in her emotionally and rooted her on and cried when we heard the bad news
Lots of people live their lives for no reason or in an empty fashion. There are criminals and bad people who may live to be a 110, and yet they won't live a life as emotionally enriching and as inspirational as she lived hers.
I just cried at my desk shady. So sobering reading this and putting that deeper perspective on things. I wish this board could give you a collective hug.Went back and forth to the hospital for 7 weeks while she was in NICU, took a ton of days off work to be at every doctor appointment, went to Early Intervention meeting and fought for her to get services, joined support groups on Facebook for pediatric stroke, ip, children with special needs, and pulmonary hypertension. Did tons of research on stroke, seizures, pulmonary hypertension, babies not gaining weight. And it was all for nothing. I can't believe she's gone. A week ago at this time was her appointment for pre surgical testing and I didn't think anything was wrong with her and now I'm planning her funeral. Life is not fair.
The nurse for the eye care facility just called and left a message asking how the pre surgical testing went and to remember put the drops in her eyes. We had to cancel the christening party we had planned for her in October. She never had a party, I never bought her a gift, I barely took her out to do anything, we went to lego land the Monday before this all happened and cheesecake factory. It was like the only thing we ever did like a normal family. That was her great vacation. I posted pics on Facebook without a care in the world and now she's gone.
Thank you for sharing and please vent as you see fit.Went back and forth to the hospital for 7 weeks while she was in NICU, took a ton of days off work to be at every doctor appointment, went to Early Intervention meeting and fought for her to get services, joined support groups on Facebook for pediatric stroke, ip, children with special needs, and pulmonary hypertension. Did tons of research on stroke, seizures, pulmonary hypertension, babies not gaining weight. And it was all for nothing. I can't believe she's gone. A week ago at this time was her appointment for pre surgical testing and I didn't think anything was wrong with her and now I'm planning her funeral. Life is not fair.
The nurse for the eye care facility just called and left a message asking how the pre surgical testing went and to remember put the drops in her eyes. We had to cancel the christening party we had planned for her in October. She never had a party, I never bought her a gift, I barely took her out to do anything, we went to lego land the Monday before this all happened and cheesecake factory. It was like the only thing we ever did like a normal family. That was her great vacation. I posted pics on Facebook without a care in the world and now she's gone.
She'll be watching over her big brother for his whole life. His own real guardian angel. I believe they'll still always have that bond, Shady. She'll be with you and watching over you all.The thing that breaks my heart the most is my Justin no longer is a big brother. He was so amazing yesterday. He finally got to visit her because we thought she was turning the corner. He knew she was very sick but I think he always assumed she would get better. When he first got there we went into another room and spoke to a social worker to prepare him. He wanted to see her but when we told him it's possible she could die he started hysterically crying. He kept asking over and over is she gonna die and we kept saying were not sure. We also told him it's possible she gets better. After he saw her I wanted to take him out of the hospital and do some normal kid stuff with him. Played some video games at the Ronald McDonald house, played pokemon go, and then we all went to shake shack. I was in a good mood because I truly believe Riley was turning the corner. Then we got a call while at shake shack to come back. The social workers stayed with Justin. They asked him if he wanted to see Riley and he said yes. He came in and we were holding her. He kissed her and then started crying and said he was scared so they took him again. They played video games with him. Then after she died he wanted to come back in. He wasn't scared anymore. He held her, he kissed her good bye, he took hand mold with her. He was so brave. No seven year old should go through that.
He was such an amazing big brother in the 8 weeks that he was with her. I truly believe he would've gotten her to walk and talk. She didn't track with her eyes but for whatever reason whenever he talked she looked right at him. They had a bond like none other and that truly breaks my heart that he'll never get to be a big brother to her.
This.Shady, he will always be her big brother.
Same as me, lots of uncontrollable sobbing. Justin sees us and says ugh you're giving me a head ache.How is your wife holding up, shady?
It's not.Her death can't be for nothing.
This news hurts all of our hearts.Same as me, lots of uncontrollable sobbing. Justin sees us and says ugh you're giving me a head ache.
I had a dream last night Riley was sick and when I woke up I realized she was gone. My heart actually hurts.
God, I'm so sorry. Nothing I can say will help, I know.Same as me, lots of uncontrollable sobbing. Justin sees us and says ugh you're giving me a head ache.
I had a dream last night Riley was sick and when I woke up I realized she was gone. My heart actually hurts.
That she looked at your son when he spoke to her is both sweet and sad beyond words. He was and always will be Riley's big brother. Don't ever let him forget that.The thing that breaks my heart the most is my Justin no longer is a big brother. He was so amazing yesterday. He finally got to visit her because we thought she was turning the corner. He knew she was very sick but I think he always assumed she would get better. When he first got there we went into another room and spoke to a social worker to prepare him. He wanted to see her but when we told him it's possible she could die he started hysterically crying. He kept asking over and over is she gonna die and we kept saying were not sure. We also told him it's possible she gets better. After he saw her I wanted to take him out of the hospital and do some normal kid stuff with him. Played some video games at the Ronald McDonald house, played pokemon go, and then we all went to shake shack. I was in a good mood because I truly believe Riley was turning the corner. Then we got a call while at shake shack to come back. The social workers stayed with Justin. They asked him if he wanted to see Riley and he said yes. He came in and we were holding her. He kissed her and then started crying and said he was scared so they took him again. They played video games with him. Then after she died he wanted to come back in. He wasn't scared anymore. He held her, he kissed her good bye, he took hand mold with her. He was so brave. No seven year old should go through that.
He was such an amazing big brother in the 8 weeks that he was with her. I truly believe he would've gotten her to walk and talk. She didn't track with her eyes but for whatever reason whenever he talked she looked right at him. They had a bond like none other and that truly breaks my heart that he'll never get to be a big brother to her.
Thank you for sharing this shady. I don't know you but for passing by and occasionally interacting here the past 10 years, but I find myself teary-eyed in mourning your family's loss and marveling your strength.The thing that breaks my heart the most is my Justin no longer is a big brother. He was so amazing yesterday. He finally got to visit her because we thought she was turning the corner. He knew she was very sick but I think he always assumed she would get better. When he first got there we went into another room and spoke to a social worker to prepare him. He wanted to see her but when we told him it's possible she could die he started hysterically crying. He kept asking over and over is she gonna die and we kept saying were not sure. We also told him it's possible she gets better. After he saw her I wanted to take him out of the hospital and do some normal kid stuff with him. Played some video games at the Ronald McDonald house, played pokemon go, and then we all went to shake shack. I was in a good mood because I truly believe Riley was turning the corner. Then we got a call while at shake shack to come back. The social workers stayed with Justin. They asked him if he wanted to see Riley and he said yes. He came in and we were holding her. He kissed her and then started crying and said he was scared so they took him again. They played video games with him. Then after she died he wanted to come back in. He wasn't scared anymore. He held her, he kissed her good bye, he took hand mold with her. He was so brave. No seven year old should go through that.
He was such an amazing big brother in the 8 weeks that he was with her. I truly believe he would've gotten her to walk and talk. She didn't track with her eyes but for whatever reason whenever he talked she looked right at him. They had a bond like none other and that truly breaks my heart that he'll never get to be a big brother to her.
All of this means he is a big brother to her. To have that bond, to connect so well with her means he did get that chance and did a remarkable job of it!The thing that breaks my heart the most is my Justin no longer is a big brother. He was so amazing yesterday. He finally got to visit her because we thought she was turning the corner. He knew she was very sick but I think he always assumed she would get better. When he first got there we went into another room and spoke to a social worker to prepare him. He wanted to see her but when we told him it's possible she could die he started hysterically crying. He kept asking over and over is she gonna die and we kept saying were not sure. We also told him it's possible she gets better. After he saw her I wanted to take him out of the hospital and do some normal kid stuff with him. Played some video games at the Ronald McDonald house, played pokemon go, and then we all went to shake shack. I was in a good mood because I truly believe Riley was turning the corner. Then we got a call while at shake shack to come back. The social workers stayed with Justin. They asked him if he wanted to see Riley and he said yes. He came in and we were holding her. He kissed her and then started crying and said he was scared so they took him again. They played video games with him. Then after she died he wanted to come back in. He wasn't scared anymore. He held her, he kissed her good bye, he took hand mold with her. He was so brave. No seven year old should go through that.
He was such an amazing big brother in the 8 weeks that he was with her. I truly believe he would've gotten her to walk and talk. She didn't track with her eyes but for whatever reason whenever he talked she looked right at him. They had a bond like none other and that truly breaks my heart that he'll never get to be a big brother to her.
Excellent, Cappy.I know you are grieving but it wasn't for nothing. You did it because you loved her and you love your family and because you're an awesome person. While she has passed on, she touched your family and friends with her love and strength; you'll have that forever. And then she spread that love and strength across the entire nation to people she never met who simply saw her pictures, became invested in her emotionally and rooted her on and cried when we heard the bad news
Lots of people live their lives for no reason or in an empty fashion. There are criminals and bad people who may live to be a 110, and yet they won't live a life as emotionally enriching and as inspirational as she lived hers.
God dang it, it just got dusty in hereThe thing that breaks my heart the most is my Justin no longer is a big brother. He was so amazing yesterday. He finally got to visit her because we thought she was turning the corner. He knew she was very sick but I think he always assumed she would get better. When he first got there we went into another room and spoke to a social worker to prepare him. He wanted to see her but when we told him it's possible she could die he started hysterically crying. He kept asking over and over is she gonna die and we kept saying were not sure. We also told him it's possible she gets better. After he saw her I wanted to take him out of the hospital and do some normal kid stuff with him. Played some video games at the Ronald McDonald house, played pokemon go, and then we all went to shake shack. I was in a good mood because I truly believe Riley was turning the corner. Then we got a call while at shake shack to come back. The social workers stayed with Justin. They asked him if he wanted to see Riley and he said yes. He came in and we were holding her. He kissed her and then started crying and said he was scared so they took him again. They played video games with him. Then after she died he wanted to come back in. He wasn't scared anymore. He held her, he kissed her good bye, he took hand mold with her. He was so brave. No seven year old should go through that.
He was such an amazing big brother in the 8 weeks that he was with her. I truly believe he would've gotten her to walk and talk. She didn't track with her eyes but for whatever reason whenever he talked she looked right at him. They had a bond like none other and that truly breaks my heart that he'll never get to be a big brother to her.
With a pregnant wife, Riley's story has hit me very hard. So much so that I have avoided posting and at times avoided reading, but her amazing story has always brought me back. As a dad of an 8 year old that is soooo excited that she is finally going to be a big sister in a few months, this post absolutely guts me. I can't even imagine...The thing that breaks my heart the most is my Justin no longer is a big brother. He was so amazing yesterday. He finally got to visit her because we thought she was turning the corner. He knew she was very sick but I think he always assumed she would get better. When he first got there we went into another room and spoke to a social worker to prepare him. He wanted to see her but when we told him it's possible she could die he started hysterically crying. He kept asking over and over is she gonna die and we kept saying were not sure. We also told him it's possible she gets better. After he saw her I wanted to take him out of the hospital and do some normal kid stuff with him. Played some video games at the Ronald McDonald house, played pokemon go, and then we all went to shake shack. I was in a good mood because I truly believe Riley was turning the corner. Then we got a call while at shake shack to come back. The social workers stayed with Justin. They asked him if he wanted to see Riley and he said yes. He came in and we were holding her. He kissed her and then started crying and said he was scared so they took him again. They played video games with him. Then after she died he wanted to come back in. He wasn't scared anymore. He held her, he kissed her good bye, he took hand mold with her. He was so brave. No seven year old should go through that.
He was such an amazing big brother in the 8 weeks that he was with her. I truly believe he would've gotten her to walk and talk. She didn't track with her eyes but for whatever reason whenever he talked she looked right at him. They had a bond like none other and that truly breaks my heart that he'll never get to be a big brother to her.