The reason i ask and the reason i answer is that i'm seeing a lot of deadness out there, people with lives to which they & others once aspired, lives that would sound pretty damn good to most folks across the world, who are dying inside. I'm retired and fairly well hermited, so have dedicated a lot of thought to this. I've come to a conclusion.
For half the world today and and all the world for 99.999% of human existence, a person has had to struggle, elementally fight, to carve life out of this earth for themselves and their families. We are hard-wired for ultimate commitment to survival, to strive with the very core of our essence or die.
Life has lit a great fire within each of us. Couple hundred years ago, we needed every ounce of that to fight, explore, suffer privation, scrape subsistence from the ground. Because humans are smart enough to wonder why they break their backs we gave ourselves glorious reasons for all this. Whether following God's plan, continuing the path of human progress, earning eternal life & limitless reward on the next level of existence, the hope of amassing untold riches & regard, whatever.........the struggle was elemental.
Today, most of us commute, committee & cooperate with forces we may not even respect, never mind admire, because we ended up being able to do a few things well enough to be welcomed into the cycles of economy. We seem to best be able to do this when we act pretty much the way everyone else does, hope that the pluses of marriage & family at least match the minuses, turn 1 or 2 major leaks of individuality into hobbies or perversions & use the delightful array of time-killing boxes to deaden our desire to be moved by any of it.
Not saying any of that is wrong, just that i see sickness in the stasis of it. Our every cell programmed to fight nature to the death in order to thrive, some of us can live an entire life now without really even joining life in any significant way.
'Join up' is the first thing i say to you, prosopis, and all the many other people in this forum alone who have either told us how lonely they are and empty they feel within their own lives or proved to be so with their almost every action. Why sit there, collective you, rooting for teams, sides, religions, parties when you haven't put Team You to the test.
You bend your mind & will to the purposes of companies & bosses who you dont care about and who dont care about you, invest most of your care in love(s), the very nature of which ensures you never get to be right, are intimately plugged into a world which seems determined to go haywire in spite of how basic answers may be. Victory is nowhere real anymore and, beyond food & shelter, it's the thing we need most. I believe the victory most available, necessary & fun to win is the one over yourself. The reward is that, when victory is the fuel for your day, each one becomes more opportunity than burden.
You have but one thing to count on - that no other entity has ever had the chance to be prosopis on July 17, the year of Our Lord 2017. It can change here, it can change now - the only one who can do it is the only one who should. You.
You could kill yourself, you could have a day like any other, you could climb a mountain, you could buy a saxophone, you could ram a school bus, you could tell off a doosh, you could help someone in need, hold up a liquor store, laugh til you puke, begin something you've always wanted to begin, pay two Asian girls to naughty you up, call an old friend, cry, visit Barranca del Cobre, schedule a physical as the beginning of a greater commitment to wellness, dance naked on a cafeteria table, punch a stranger in the face, see your wife as she was when you fell in love with her & kiss her like you haven't in 15 years, rent a canoe, set yourself on fire
Join your life. Find out why you deserve to be here with the verve of a miner seeking gold; use yourself til you're exhausted in service of beauty, truth, God; see the extraordinary possibilities in everything; help; ask for help; snuff it if you must but not before you've required of yourself & life an amount at least equal to special nature of the gift of life you've received. You need a hand with any o' that, holla. GL -