Chad, I know exactly what your going through. My wife beat both breast and ovarian cancer. Shortly after she kicked breast cancers *** she had a heart attack. I've been basically a caregiver for the past 5 years. Believe it or not its gotten me closer to god.
I know how you feel about the house and yard. I finally hired a neighborhood kid to do mine. As far as the house goes I do the best I can I'm more of a surface cleaner while my wife was a pro. Still feel a little guilty about that. Don't forget to take some time for yourself if only a few minutes. I go fishing sometimes for about an hour just to get my stuff together. My wife and I are praying for you brother.
Man.... that is a stretch. I feel you brother. How is she doing now? Is she in treatment now? I just took a moment to pray for you guys and will keep you there.
Was the heart attack maybe connected to the treatments for cancer? It is a lot that they have to go through for it. I know it stresses the body and I wonder if that could end up stressing the heart to that point.
My back sucks. I still need to go do my MRI for it as the Xrays said I was a degenerate (well, there was a bunch of medical stuff in it about my back but all I got out of it was that I was a degenerate). Just too much going on. It limits me so much. The last time I cleaned out small bathroom, I was out of commission for the rest of the day could barely do anything for almost a week. My daughter really should step up and do more cleaning around the house, my older son is starting to take over the yardwork doing the mowing now but I need to teach him how to edge and do other stuff. We cleaned out half of my garage this late spring with my kids (really just my older son as the other two were near useless). My goal was to clean out the whole garage but I just was done by the time we got half done. Then things are pretty busy where doing the other half never happened. I am hoping to get back into the gym regularly and hoping that strengthening my body in ways that I protect my back, will end up making my back stronger and I can do more. But that is easier said that done.
With God, I have been stubborn (for those who know me well that is not surprising at all). I have continued my prayers mostly evolving around my wife and kids and praying for others that come up that are in need in some way but other than going to church for things involved with the family or kids (which is always Catholic and I am not Catholic) I haven't been to church except this last Sunday. The event from last week really moved me and I got up and went to my church and will go again this weekend as well and plan on making it a habit again. I plan on figuring out where one of my 10 bibles I have (not being funny, I intended to go into full time ministry as a kid) and start spending time in it regularly again.