Reading this thread is like watching a car wreck, I just can't turn away. While part of me wants to say:
"Tipsy, go ahead, just have one last cigarette for old time sake"
The other part of me wants to say:
"Tipsy, you are doing great. Just think about the extra time you will be able to spend with your kid(s), and one day hopefully granchild(ren). Don't voluntarily cut your life short for a temporary nicotine satisfaction"
Honestly though I am pulling for you. Cigarette smokers are not high on my list of people I root for, because I feel you are all weak minded fools. But if there was a way to force you to stop (short of death) available, like maybe via pill or something, I'd donate some cash to the effort.
G'luck!