Looking for some thoughts on my situation:
This week one of my fraternity brothers died. We started out as decent friends freshmen year, but after that we pretty much hated each other. I honestly don't remember what triggered why we didn't get along (most likely fraternity politics and he turned to drugs), but we hadn't seen each other since he left school. He however remained friends with some of my friends (he was really the only person in the whole fraternity that I honestly didn't like as a person).
By no means whatsoever am I glad he's gone, but I'd be lying if I said I lost any sleep over the fact that he passed. Now where I'm torn is that he remained friends with some of my friends....I'm sure some of them still remember we didn't get along and some of them don't....so I don't think anyone will think anything of it if I go to the services...but if I don't go, I think some might think I'm a d-bag for not going.
Do I go to the services? If I did, it would be more in support of my friends more than a tribute to him

I'm honestly torn here and can't help but feeling a bit selfish in my thoughts...but it is what is.
No TPW needed, just need some opinions on my situation.
Please and Thank You.