Great stuff Gb. And totally agree. My problem isn’t the one bad day or even one bad week. It’s this: if I was doing something that worked for me and made me feel good, why don’t I go back to it after that day or week? Why on earth do I have to throw it all out the window and wait 6 months for things to be out of control before I decide to try again? If I instead just stick to this as the norm, then a day or even week here or there won’t substantially impact my long term progress. I’ve gotta have a long game mentality, because the “let’s see how much I can lose in a month” mentality doesn’t work for me and isn’t sustainable.
Sticking with MFP. And back to getting some exercise calories to earn my cheats. Onwards.
Starting back on your diet is a critical skill that you have not yet developed. It's one of the things people call "willpower" but it's really something you have to learn. I did not have this skill when I took my first ever cheat day, and it derailed me for a week. I tried logging in to do myfitnesspal and I just... didn't stop when I hit my calorie goal. In my head I knew that a cheat day wasn't the end of the world, so why not two? In the morning I was ready to diet again and conquer the world, but at night I was conniving and wanted to eat more and drink wine.
One of the things that helped was that I was not going over my daily energy expenditure, just my calorie goals. So if my goal is to lose two pounds a week, my goal is set for 1000 less than I need, and if i go over my goal by 500 today, I'll still be burning 500 more than I ate. So one thing that helped was to keep tracking even when I was "cheating" and keep the cheat from getting out of control. When you turn off myfitnesspal altogether, you're more likely to have the 5000 calorie blowout.
Bear in mind that I literally turned off myfitnesspal Tuesday night after a day of otherwise good eating and drank wine and ate food I shouldn't have. I'm not saying you can never do that, just that doing it has consequences and it will take time to undo those. I weighed in this morning and still weigh a bit more than I did Tuesday morning.
And Wednesday when I woke up I had coffee and regretted my decisions and felt a little gross because I definitely did not stop at one glass of wine, and I hadn't drank a drop in over a month so it hits different. And it sucked. I woke up and logged my coffee and my breakfast but I wanted to eat like i did last night because that was so much more fun and dieting sucks and why am I like this and oh yeah this is how I got so fat in the first place. So I logged everything, and stayed under my calorie goal, even though I didn't really feel like it.
You turned off myfitnesspal for what... 4 days? 5? Depending how much you over indulged, it might take you a couple weeks to undo that. That's totally normal. It's part of the process. But imagine if you had contained that to 3 days. Or two.
Another thing that I think really helped me was taking "cheat meals" fairly often but not taking "cheat days". Keeping breakfast and lunch small, doing my exercise, and then going all out on a 1000 plus calorie dinner. For you that's been a smallish dinner and a glass or two of wine. And I think that's what helped you get on board with myfitnesspal and that's awesome.
Cheat meals are the reason I don't usually need cheat days. Today is Saturday and I'm taking my kid somewhere for his weekly reward. He's excited to go to a local pizza place... that's known for their giant slices... and awesome barbecue chicken and Buffalo chicken pizza.... and I love this place. This could easily be problematic. I could easily justify to myself that this is a special occasion and a lot of weeks he picks some bull#### place I don't even like but this is a favorite and I'll cheat. But I don't have to.
I'm going to make a protein shake with lots of fruit to get some vitamins and fiber without a lot of calories, I'm going to do my yoga and cardio to earn some more room, I have some cooked shrimp and carrots/broccoli/cauliflower that are a ton of protein and fiber, and I'm leaving myself room for three huge slices of pizza without going over. And I'll have three more tomorrow for the superbowl.
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Think about what I'm saying here. The reason I'm giving you these examples is that these are the skills to get back on.
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Accept that you cheat but contain the cheating to as few days as possible.
Learn that it takes several days to recover from one day of cheating badly, and that cheating badly today will really piss you off later.
Try to put constraints on your cheat days by logging your food even if you go over goal. If you eat 1000 calories over your goal of burning 1000 extra, it still feels like cheating but you won't put on any fat.
Don't cheat when you don't have to. You cheat when you're under stress. Ok, then don't cheat when you're not under stress. Use cheat meals like i do, plan your day Sunday around the cheating, and don't just think "I'll make some nachos and wings and a beer or two", but check out the calories in advance and decide how much of each you can have based on the food and exercise you have earlier in the day. If that's three beers, 7 wings and a dozen nachos, then you get a beer and count out the nachos on your plate early in the game and then go back for 3 wings later and then go back and get a beer and two more and two more after that and another beer and spread it out a little. Or whatever works for you.
After a cheat day, get back started on myfitnesspal the next day and log everything. In the morning you're able to do it. It's night time that gets you. So start it up in the morning and give yourself a chance to get back on track later.
Get used to that ####ty feeling when you're getting back on your diet and want to just keep being a big fat fatty. You broke your routine and need to reestablish it.
And yes you will need to get used to eating healthier over time. But you are doing awesome, even with some cheating in there. Because you're developing the skills that will last a long time. Just make sure you actually do it.
I love that you are finding ways to indulge during the week while staying under calories. Eventually I would like to see that become so normal that you can tweak it, but Rome wasn't built in a day and neither are healthy habits so let's focus on one thing right now and that's getting your calorie intake under control and losing the weight you've been trying to lose for the better part of a decade. So right now as long as your doctor isn't telling you that you need to cut the salt or the booze or make other urgent changes, focus on this one thing.