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Hey guys I have been coming here for dang near 20 years. I haven't posted a whole lot but really enjoyed reading the forums. I feel like I really know some of the posters here even though we may not have interacted at all. I really kind of need a place to talk right now. My wife bless her heart is not really the one I want to express some of these things with she is just too emotional. Plus she is just recently fighting breast cancer herself.
The past few weeks I have had a foreboding feeling like something wasn't right with me. Then about 2 weeks ago my neck right under the jaw line swelled up to the size of a softball man it was painful. The lymph nodes around an old tumor that was not malignant had swollen. This old tumor is called something I really can't recall the name just know that it sounded German and that older folks and smokers get them but they are usually not cancerous. Anyway had a biopsy done and just found out it is malignant. So now needless to say I'm really scared and I can't say that to my wife.
It's my own dang fault smoked for all those years so stupid. Now I know it doesn't just happen to other people. I'm so worried for my wife right now and my daughter Megan. They depend so much on me Megan is special she will always be about 12 years old. I just don't know how they would manage without me. Such an idiot for smoking all those years.
I know that this doesn't have to be a death sentence. I've already kicked hep c in the butt. Took those treatments back when they were torture. I don't see the Otolaryngologist until next week so I'm really getting anxious. I would really appreciate any positive thoughts you guys can send my way. And thanks for letting me vent. I may be doing that alot.
The past few weeks I have had a foreboding feeling like something wasn't right with me. Then about 2 weeks ago my neck right under the jaw line swelled up to the size of a softball man it was painful. The lymph nodes around an old tumor that was not malignant had swollen. This old tumor is called something I really can't recall the name just know that it sounded German and that older folks and smokers get them but they are usually not cancerous. Anyway had a biopsy done and just found out it is malignant. So now needless to say I'm really scared and I can't say that to my wife.
It's my own dang fault smoked for all those years so stupid. Now I know it doesn't just happen to other people. I'm so worried for my wife right now and my daughter Megan. They depend so much on me Megan is special she will always be about 12 years old. I just don't know how they would manage without me. Such an idiot for smoking all those years.
I know that this doesn't have to be a death sentence. I've already kicked hep c in the butt. Took those treatments back when they were torture. I don't see the Otolaryngologist until next week so I'm really getting anxious. I would really appreciate any positive thoughts you guys can send my way. And thanks for letting me vent. I may be doing that alot.